To all the Hopeless Romantics...

Happy Valentine's Day! Today was a sad day for me... damn you Hallmark!

I can't comprehend some things about high school. Firstly, how can anybody say they truly "love" in highs school? You're confined in a small town at a school with 2000 students and you have no idea what's actually out there. Secondly, why are people so needy? Is it so horrible not to need a significant other at this point in your life?

I thank God for the way I turned out. I have this weird third-party way of learning. I make mistakes and learn, but not nearly as much as from the people around me. It is as if their pain is my gain. Through this third-party learning I grow everyday spiritually and mentally. There is nothing else in high school that I am looking forward to experience besides graduation. I am so secure with who I am I really do feel as if I am ready for that next chapter in my life, college.

My teacher analyzed me and she told me I reminded her of herself. She first asked me if I had a boyfriend and I told her I did not. She says that it's because I am such an independent individual that I feel like a boyfriend would only slow me down. I agree, my life is moving at such a fast pace and my mind is so hectic that I would only be slowing myself down. So in that sense, I am insecure and I have an expectation that is almost unreal yet if it did happen I would fool myself into thinking that it was too surreal and give up. What she said is mostly true...

I am not writing this blog as an ode to the bitterness of Valentine's Day. I was merely thinking of why I didn't have a "special somebody" to celebrate this Hallmark holiday with. But then I realized that I don't mind and I prefer it this way. I like being independent and free, life is more exciting. =) Hope you guys had a great day!